My 5th language

廣東話，英語，國語，客家話以後，
韓語就是我的 5th language.

在香港學習的時候，
抱著輕鬆隨便的心態學著，
啊考試要到了嗎？
老師老師，給我們提示嘛，
不然考不好怎麼辦啊。

有了提示，
考試當然是高空飛過。

只是，在香港學習韓語，
除了跟班上的同學練習對話以外，
真的沒有機會練習了。
加上我對韓國娛樂圈的興趣是零，
叫我看劇集，
我實在是……
真的完全提不起勁啊。

不過，
來了韓國以後，
總算發現自己原來有多麼不足。
只是，
我終究還是個外國人，
而且這語言我在外地學了一年多而已，
還能怎樣呢?

算了，
這一切都是懶惰的藉口。

重新出發。

Charlotte Church - Even God

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes, I thought this love would last
Who am I to question why?
Who am I?

Darling, when I'm hurt
That's when I'm satisfied
Tell me what it's worth
To pursue the Holy life
I can see your face
Even when I close my eyes
I can give you love
Even when I've been denied

Who's loving who?
Who's fooling who?

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes, I thought this love would last
Who am I to question why?
Who am I?

Darling, what is love
If it never gets you high?
Should we sit and wait
While the wasted years roll by?
Is there time to say
If I lied, I apologize
Never go away
Please stay here by my side

Who's fooling who?
Who's loving who?

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes I thought this dream would last
Who am I to question why?
Who am I?

They try to break you
They try to steal your stars
If they ever take you
Just remember who you are
They try to hate you
Just like some love bizarre
It's a sign of weakness
To be afraid of what you are

Who's loving who?
Who's fooling who?

Even God can't change the past
No matter how many tears I've cried
Yes I thought this pain would pass
Who am I to question why?

終究

不開心，我不開心。
真的不開心。

讓你心裡難受，
然後，
我們都難受……

甚麼第不第一次的，
其實基本沒有必要記住。
因為那不值得記住，
那只是沒有養份的回憶。

眼淚在眼眶裡打轉……

愚笨，
就這麼的愚笨…

終究我還是那個最自私的人。

最著重自己感受，
不願意把該放手的放手的人。


Even God.

Varsity Fanclub - Lost Then Found

You don’t gotta worry anymore
Girl I got a feeling since you walked through the door
That we don’t need nobody but the two of us
Just you and me against the world

We don’t gotta look for it, it's so hard
You and me were lost now we’re in each others arms
Finally we found something that we can hold
And I can’t let it go cause now (tell me how)

Lost in your love and it's pulled me in
Searching for some kind of sign to begin
Caught in your world and I'm turned around
Now that you got me lost then found
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
You got me lost then found
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
Now that you got me lost then found

I don’t go to see it to believe
All that I gotta know is that you never would leave
And you don’t need the story of how my heart broke
Cause I can tell you already know

I don't know how he treats you so bad
I can almost hear all of the things that he said
But we don’t need to spend even one minute longer
Thinkin' about the past
What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger now

Lost in your love and it's pulled me in
Searching for some kind of sign to begin
Caught in your world and I'm turned around
Now that you got me lost then found
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
You got me lost then found
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
Now that you got me lost then found

Whenever you’re lost at sea baby just call for me
Cause you know I’ll be calling for you
Whenever you turn the page dance on another stage
Know in this life I’ll be dancing with you

Took me, you got me and turned me around
Now look what we found...

Lost in your love and it's pulled me in
Searching for some kind of sign to begin
Caught in your world and I'm turned around
Now that you got me lost then found
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
You got me lost then found
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
I’m looking and you’re looking
Now that you got me lost then found

突如其來的失眠夜

昨晚，躺在床上。

啊……睡不著。

輾轉反側，還是睡不著。
好不容易睡著了，卻在數小時內再度醒來。

這該不是下午 4 時多喝的咖啡作祟吧，
來韓國以後，每每喝咖啡後都只有喝睡的份兒呀。
這到底是怎麼了呢?

心裡總覺得怪怪的……
想好好休息，腦袋卻是清醒得很。

其實我一點也不善良，
只是怕自己變成害別人死掉的人而已。
當初發生的種種，
都該放下了。
可是，心底裡還是帶著一絲當時時的懼怕。

明明都沒事了，
還有什麼好怕呢?

兩個不同的世界，
無交接點的世界，
為什麼還要懼怕?

這是重新得到幸福的考驗。

傷口，會癒合，
就算有疤痕，
又怎樣呢?

啊，向前看吧。
面前還有很多事物更值得我去注意，
不是嗎?

Let Go

Come on, come on, come on!
It's time for you to let go, Melody.

Let it go.
Let it go.
Let it go.

You're no longer 18 anymore.
That ended 5 years ago already.

You're not living in the past.

Now you've found what you want,
so why don't you just smile and look forward?

Come on, girl...

This is really not like you.

矛盾

今天在學校看電影的時候，
每每快要出現血腥場面，
或是被嚇到的時候，
總是忍不住想要抓著旁邊的朋友.......

突然想到，
我從前會這樣子嗎?

記得有一陣子，
對人失去信任，
把自己關在自己的世界裡，
拍照不懂得笑，
總是一個人躲著，
為寂寞而哭泣。

慢慢的，
就算是被嚇到，
所有感覺都藏在心底，
好讓別人不發覺我的脆弱。
因為當時我認為，
這樣，
自己一個人，
不哭，不害怕，
才是堅強。

如今，
懂得笑了，
重新有了各樣的表情，
遇到好笑的事情會開懷大笑，
被嚇到，
會想抓住旁邊的朋友，
這樣的我，
是我想要的我嗎?

開始有了值得信任的朋友，
就代表要依賴嗎?
可是，
要是再藏著自己的話，
卻又會不經意的把別人拒諸門外。

我很害怕，
失衡的那天會不會再來。

不想再被討厭，
不想再自己一個了。

我不想再當悲劇女主角了。
那樣一點都不好玩......